So hello? I guess you probably won't read this since you made your own blog haha. (I haven't been stalking you what are you talking about? I just stumbled upon a Google plus post of your blog) But I'll write about this anyways.
First it's been officially 8 months since anything was written. And well this blog was a very interesting idea. Since those 8 months there we've sort of gone our own ways. You go to University in Northridge and I go to one in Irvine. It's been officially one week since I started school and 4 or 5 weeks since you started. My school year has started out rough and I have felt like I wasn't good enough but I won't go into details. One of my assignments has been to start a blog for one of my classes called Humanities Core. At first I was excited after I turned it in extremely confident but afterwards when I saw a couple of students' blogs I felt like I had done the assignment wrong. The truth is the content of their first blog posts were extremely elaborate while mine was just... basic. I still believe this. The prompt was to look for a picture of war and describe what the photographer wants us to feel about war. I was being basic and decided to just directly answer. That was my mistake. Yet when I look back on this blog I feel like when we wrote personal blog posts or just blog posts about our feelings I feel like they were good. I mean I guess the reason why I was so confident is that these blog posts are more real and personal. While when I am writing for my class blog I know that my peers and my instructor are going to read them so it makes me more conscious. Maybe if it were just peers I wouldn't feel so conscious but the fact that a teacher is reading it makes it feel like I have to answer in a somewhat formal way and I can't be as casual. Like one of my classmates even had a bibliography on her first blog post. I feel like the blog I'm making for class is so... fake. I feel like I am forcing myself to write a blog. I mean yes I know it's work. But having a minimum word limit I have to meet makes me write nonsense. I feel like it shouldn't have a word limit. Maybe a maximum but having a word limit you have to meet feels so limiting. I don't know maybe I'm just complaining for no good reason. Maybe there is a word limit so I can challenge myself and come up with new ideas. The whole purpose of this blog post is basically to explain my frustrations. I felt like I was good at blogging but it turns out I'm not as good as I thought I guess I just have to push myself more.
That sounds kind of tough, I totally understand. I didn't forget about our blog don't worry :) Sometimes I go through it and re-read our stories. I have to write discussion posts and honestly, yeah, sometimes I feel the same way. I felt like I had to be formal and have an opinion that the teacher would like. After some more posts I realized that I don't care what the teacher thinks of my opinions. I followed the rules but I was also being myself and I tried to make sure I was expressing myself, not someone else. The purpose of those blogs you do for your class, I'm guessing is to express yourself more. That's a great idea, it seems as you grow older you feel like you have to limit yourself, (Like the word count) So I will tell you what I do.
ReplyDeleteI answer the questions, I follow the directions, but I answer it as if someone is asking for my opinion and how I feel about it, I forget about the word count, I just write and write. After I'm done I check the word count and I check if i followed the directions. :) I hope I helped
I hope you continue writing because I know how much you loved it. I loved it too and I have my own blog because as the title said, I have scattered thoughts. Sometimes I put them there for myself to see, to write without thinking and whoever see's it, see's it. I could totally continue writing on this blog too, it was fun :) so don't feel confined, no one should make you feel that way
Oh and by the way, I think you're a great writer, screw what anyone else thinks, just be yourself :D
ReplyDeleteThanks Jessica! Our teacher told us to write our blogs like how we write naturally. He told us not to worry and when he was doing an imitation he looked like a dinosaur lol . And its good you have you write you're own blog. I don't think I wil have time for writing. Sometimes I long for the past but I guess this blog is like an artifact. Which reminds me I have a blog entry titled that as a draft it might be like a farewell post stay tuned ;)
ReplyDeleteAW why farewell? That sounds too sad. I'm so late haha sorry I replied one month later xD Maybe one of these days I will write a short story on here. MAYBE if I do I hope its a good one.
ReplyDeleteIt's okay! Lol I was going to post a farewell post until I realized it made so sense so I deleted it!
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